Whoah..this is how it feels to write! well...am not very good at this, yet i would like to see how writing could help me in improving my English... ;)
anyway, this is my very "1st newborn baby" At the first place, I've created this blog to follow my best friend's updates, Eugenia Ida Edward, as she loves to write. She's a kind of person who doesn't show how she feels about something. She rarely shares her emotion, and i found out that blog is the only medium that I can feel her true emotion towards somethings. (I know u'll laugh when u read this, beech!). This girl loves to make fun of me, sometimes i pissed off too, but most of the time i enjoy her sarcasm. She simply knows the best way to criticize w/o me getting angry.
i dont have much time to write as am a very busy person. (i got these circle of friends that i have to entertain) as well as my assignments. hahha. I only write when i feel like doing so...this evening, i suddenly feel like starting a new post after watching a movie entitled "If Only". I've watched this movie for more than 10 times, but i still cry every time i watch it. I simply hate to cry as I think it shows how weak I am..but sometimes, i couldn't control it. For those who havent watched this film, u better do, especially MEN. This film shows how to appreciate ur woman. We, human beings, tend to appreciate things/people only after it's/they're gone, when we feel empty without 'em. This is a total B.S i would say. Cherish the moment u have with people around u, while it lasts. Speaking about cherishing the moment with the person we love, I would like to share something that's beautifully happening in my life. The day i thought I had enough of men is the day I found him.
My previous relationships and affairs were all disappointing. I don't blame my ex-bfs/scandals *wink2*, there were mistakes that I've made too that caused failure. Since am not as beautiful,adorable, and petite as a Malay girl should be, I always have this doubt that my men will never stick with me. I was always being suspicious of what they were doing without me and doubt their feelings towards me...they had enough of it, and we broke up. There was also a guy who intentionally played with my heart. I felt like a total idiot at that time. I've cried a lot. My friends were all surprised to see me in gloom because am a very, very cheerful person. this is the starting point when I lose weight. I've lost 15kgs at that time due to broken heart. Now I would like to thank that particular person for giving me the chance to feel "lighter" than before.Thanks K.H!! The day i got over him and decided not to fall in love with any men, I found a man of my dream.
We knew each other from Tagged. He sent me a message saying that he's interested to know me..hahah.."duh-uh..just another guy in TAGGED" i said it in my heart. Then I went to his profile to view his photo. there's only a photo of him. From what I've seen, I believed that he is a Caucasian from British Virgin Island. I said "WOW!!" ok..relax waniey..dont get too excited. I've been dreaming of dating a "Mat Salleh" since I was a kid, and now what??My dream comes true??jeng jeng jeng...(to be continued)
