I am raised in a family who taught me deeply bout my religion.am a Muslim, and since I was 6 years old my mom had made it compulsory to wear tudung@headcover. She won't allow me to go out with bare head. alhamdulilah...am so thankful to born and raised in this beautiful family."Why do Muslim women have to cover their heads?" it is simply because "We want to stop men from treating us like sex objects, as they have always done. We want them to ignore our appearance and to be attentive to our personalities and mind. We want them to take us seriously and treat us as equals and not just chase us around for our bodies and physical looks."
Yet, i was a very rebellious child, I still am. I've tried not to wear my head cover so many times when I was in year 4 and Year 6. After several unsuccessful tries, i gave up and just followed whatever mom had told me to do. I realized the benefits of wearing head cover then. Until now i conform to the idea that it is better for women to wear hijab/headcover.
Lately, many of my colleagues were surprised when they see me in pictures without my head cover.yeah.I never showed my hair to men (sedara mara mestilah aku tunjuk je kan, mksud aku kawan2 lelaki aku) before. I would like to apologize here. It's not that i DON'T WANT to wear my head cover, it's THE FORCE OF CIRCUMSTANCE.some said that am being hypocrite for wearing it when I have classes, and free hair when am going out. Thank you for the comments people. I accept that. Now, please let me stand out for myself.
I know I've broken the commandments set by my own religion.I know am at fault. I did this after taking several things into consideration. This issue of wearing head cover is actually brought up by my Mr.Sweet Talker as he was uncomfortable going out with me when every single person we meet will be glaring at us.not once.not twice.its more than thrice.Therefore he asked me if i can take out my headgear (that's what he calls it) when am with him. His reason of asking me doing so is quite reasonable. He said that he doesnt want to be humiliated when he's with me.(he had been arrested by the police when he was walking with a Malay friend together with her son). Do i want to see him been caught when he is walking with me in public then?Try to put urself in my shoes. ~~Force of Circumstance No.1
Force of Circumstance No.2~~Most Malaysians don't like Black people. We think that they are troublesome. We claim that they are criminals. Hence, they don't like to see their women with any black guys. Since am not as fair as a Malay woman should be, not wearing my head cover is actually hindering the public from seeing me as a Malay girl. I am proud to be a Malay girl, but i have to reconsider things that are happening around me. that is the sacrifice i made to be with him. i really hope he understands that.And most of the time when am not wearing my head cover are the times when am with him.
I just wanna give something for us to ponder here. How sure are we that Black people are all misbehaving in this country?? Is each one of them doing the same things/mistakes?? should every black people been blame for the increasing crime cases in our country?? YOU have the answer, and I have mine. I am not backing up these people. Those who are corrupting this country (selling women and children, drug dealers n etc) PLEASE DO arrest them. But for those who have good intention staying in this country, let them live as normal human beings. Imagine if you're going to America or London, do u want the natives to treat us like rubbish there??hell nooooo~He has opened my eyes regarding this issue. I don't wanna be bias. He is the one I love, my country is the place where I was born,my race is what am proud to be. i just want us to rethink and reconsider. there's nothing that he does will make me turn my back towards my country, religion, and race. I am trying my best to change for the betterment too. Renung2kan dan selamat beramal..;)
