i knew it....

u might not believe in thing dat am gonna say..
but i can always feel and sense if something not right happens to my love ones.
my heart will beat faster.
so dont cheat, (if u're in the list of my love ones) =p
because i know something is bothering u at the moment..
and i'll try my best to discover whats going on.
its not that i wanna fuss around, but I truly care.

Oko mii...mo nifee re...

i wish i could scream my lungs out and tell him this...
i wish i could tell the whole world how much am in love with him..
but i couldnt..i simply can't...
i have to delete 2 blog posts to respect his privacy...
i dont wanna ruin everything he has now....

i pray each day for us to be together...
i know am emotionally driven..
i know i cant control my emotion..
i am a passionate person, i CANt be heartless,
even i've tried several times to be one...

Love, we may have several misunderstandings due to our culture and language barriers...
but nothing can stop me from loving you....
not even the people around me...
nothing in this world cant be talked about

sometimes you're very strict and rigid towards me....
and it reminds me of my fierce dad...
how glad i am when i found someone who is like my dad...
because my dad is the only MAN who can TAME the furious me....
thank you for being someone who loves and guides me at the same time..

I never know what the future brings but I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with...

oko mii...mo niferee..

Hey You!

You cant get me by ur sweet talks, darling.
Am not easy, u gotta work for it.
since promises are meant to be broken, i wont trust any of it, at least from now on.
if u think u have struggled to get me, u're wrong.
nothing is confirmed in this world, and am not even ur wife yet.
at any time, any place, i can find a guy who is truly in love with me for who i am.
am not bragging.i know am not that pretty.but am stunning.
I wont be like the girls that u have met before, if only u treat me right.
if u're thinking to have more than me, forget it.
I'll be the BEST you NEVER had.and you're the one who'll regret.

what u give, u get back..revenge?simply KARMA.

heartache.this is not bout love.it's about friendship.
i just dont get it, Why in a world that PERSON tries to break our friendship by "poisoning" her mind that our circle of friends is discriminating and humiliating HER?


hello??how old are u bitch?why do u behave like a high school student? Go to hell!U simply dont know us, and dont u dare to judge us. Nak mengata kami, JUMPE AKU FACE TO FACE!!


To You (u know who u are) How many years have u spent ur time with us? Why are u easily influenced by that bitch's words? U're not a KID. Do we have to tell u each time
HOW MUCH WE LOVE U?
If u want that, sorry, we CANT do that.
we simply have our own way of expressing our love to people who deserve it.
If u think u are not appreciated being with us, u MAY LEAVE us. I am sicked and tired when u say, WHAT YOU GIVE, U GET BACK.
U wanna revenge?sorry, wrong people, place and time.
I dont wanna be such a bitch and do nasty things to u.
i appreciate all my friends. WE do appreciate u. too bad, u simply COULDN'T see that. It's not our lost anyway.

i dont mean no harm. i just want u guys to know that LOVE is beyond WORDS.
I am angry, upset, and disappointed when i heard that from someone I considered as a good friend of mine.
I know am dragging this issue, but I dont feel good when i think bout it.
So, YOU.THINK and DECIDE.

Is it worth fighting for?

"Anything that worth having, well am sure enough worth fighting for"

How sure are u it's worth fighting for, Cheryl? even u and ur husband went separate ways... should i trust u, Cheryl?? hahahha..poyo la waniey.
Well, i went and met him after breaking my fast today. Was about to call everything off. but.. Before that, i talked to someone, who had opened my eyes bout relationship. So, take it easy Waniey. not everything is going ur way. Let's see how it goes. bak kate madam Adzura,

"If he is serious bout u, he'll plan everything 2 be with u"

Hence, i think i should be relax and chill rite now as am the queen here. *wink2* I shouldnt burden myself with his problem, and not being so emotionally dependent with his actions. oh, come on!u're a grown up woman Waniey.no need to act like a child. Buck up, girl! Focus and concentrate with ur studies! By hook or by crook u have to graduate at the end of this year! till my fingers dance on the keyboard again...

down to memory lane is not that bad at all!

regardless of the workloads, I still wanna have fun!
Today is a public holiday for Malaysians, Happy Independence Day people!
so last nite we were hunting for firecrackers (shouldnt it be MEN?LOL) to be burnt.
Me, Hafiz, Alyani, and Syida were together in this. Since we didnt want to celebrate Merdeka somewhere in KL with the crowd, we decided to celebrate it in our own way,
which is buying those petite firecrackers and mercun.hahahah.
after the hang out at Pak Li Kopitiam, (with arguments, heart to heart session, laughs and fights with Hafiz, Syida n Lya) we went straight to Seksyen 18 to find those kiddies firecrackers. Sadly, we didnt find any there.

No retreat no surrender! We went to Uptown 24 to find those.and we found it!
We spent RM13 for various types of firecrackers (mercun gasing, bunga api yg batang besi tu, mercun lebah!dan mercun naga). Feel like losers at first when we tried to burn the mercun gasing, but then it turned out to be a great small event for us. we enjoyed playing with each other just like the good old days!It reminds me of my childhood experience during Eid. The celebration of Eid nowadays doesnt feel the same like when I was a kid. *sigh*

I really love doing these trifle things that makes me happy and feel appreciated, and loved by people around me. I am this childish sometimes.

gotta go now. have a date with some1 new.dont u think i should move on?? *wink2*

Jump Starter, Anyone?

I actually have a lot of works to be done. assignments. Academic Exercise.Presentations.But i need a jump start for that. frankly speaking, I have no motivation to complete all the assignments given and am worried. I wanna finish my degree with flying colours, yet, i wonder why am i being this way.

I had fun this semester. I am still enjoying it.Love life/social life is perfectly managed *yeke??* (regardless the emotional pains that he puts me through, i dont give a damn!). I just wanna live my life with no regrets.let my mistakes teach me how to lead a perfect life in the future. may Allah show me the right way for the betterment. Thanks Eugenia for the eye-opening advice. I put it nicely in my memory box.

Mom and Dad, please pray for my success. I really need ur prayers now. I truly hope that i wont disappoint u two this time.I'll do what it takes to graduate and start working by next year. I just need the strength and motivation to complete all this, and get over these 5 wonderful years (tanak ltak 1/2 sebab nampak huduh.hahah.)of being a university student. am gonna miss those moments that we have, people!! I love u guys,thanks for being by my side during my ups and downs. I know am surrounded by great people with great love and concern.<-------- (this is for u my beloved Aminah, Alyani, Emy Shafikah, Syahida Samad, Fatimah Filzah, Shella Joseph, Syah Feymousa, Zafi Zakaria, Muammar Fhais, Sharifah Muna Maisarah, Bahiyah Shariff, Hafizuddin Zainal, and those who were/ are with me all these years)

To you, Mr. A. Valentine. I dont know what's the purpose of u meeting my close friends and took us out for dinner at TGIF before going to China. Thanks for that. But I simply dont get it: what's with the 5 days of silent treatment then?? what did i do?is this good bye?If it's a YES, i'll take it positively. Maybe we're not meant to be together after 4 months seeing each other?OKAY. I am ok.(saya masih tersenyum semasa menulis ini) I'll be waiting for ur explanation, and am ready for any consequences.(SANGAT positif kan??) There are reasons why people meet, and I don't wanna regret the day we met each other. i wont shed a tear for this. am a GROWN UP woman.it's ur lost if u cant see my potential. *wink2* (credit to Hafezeen for giving me the book "Too Soon to Old, Too Late to Smart" by Gordon Livingston)

To Eugenia Ida, I just wanna laugh!!!both of us have experienced shits (maafkan kate2 kesatku) that happened in our life due to our foolishness.and am thankful i still can see those stupid things made by me(ko punye pon aku nampak gak!) and got the chance to mend my mistakes. Mari pastikan yg kite akan graduate n kerja!!bole shopping sakan! (that's what we both are good at=menghabiskan duet!)

I think that's all for today. Thank u for lending me ur eyes.need to get back to work on my thesis. (sempat lg update blog keyynn...)

Thanks Syah, Zafrul, Shell n Gee for the simple yet perfect hang out last nite. oh, I met someone who is so refreshing yesterday. I'll write bout him when am ready ;)